apologies….
it has been a while since i’ve last visited this blog, it has been a while i’d last wrote "something". even though i’ve been hired as a writer for a "PR" propagandist consultant. it’s funny, i have been "writing" so much lately, it almost feels "empty". however, it seems to lead me to another "way" realization. it is "empty" after all, what do i mean here? i do not really know. but it is as if writing is for the sake of writing, no perhaps i’m not getting it clear. it has become a necessity, the "quest-ion" is how do i balance it. no, the question is, any form of expression in writing is just another form. perhaps, i am not going anywhere, perhaps the purpose of writing really have a "reason", perhaps the reason behind the reason lies more reason, perhaps, there is none at all. that writing is a tool, to reinvent what is there already, to show new perspective, angle, light, blah blah blah. is necessity becoming clear? perhaps you are right, i AM writing to an audience, but is it really for you to read? or is it for me to self-reflect? i do not know, but i do know it is a form of expression on what its already there, happening, going to, has, was, whatever. If only i have the thirst for more, to write, write, write, write. but i do not have the energy - it’s draining, the capitalist world is taking my life slowly, and surely, i’ve dramatized it, so What!? i fear that it is really the truth. i fear by the time my life ends, i’ve not uncover the lies buried deep beneath, not even close, that most people remained as stupid as i am today. i apologize that you have to bear with me, i apologize that you no longer see the world through my eyes. i apologize i no longer see it through yours.
